Let's start over......
Yea it stresses me out. i have lately been thinking, what if. what if i would have lived like a kid. what if i wouldnt have went to work. what if i wouldnt have givin up sports to go to work. I mean, i jsut lost my gf of a year and a half because of it. because i stress her out. because i dont live like the ppl she knows. Sometimes it kills me. I mean, i basically gave up everything, to be stressed, to have a truck.. i mean really, what did i gain? i know what you guys are gonna say, just wait till you have a house payment and kids and bills and bla bla bla. i say to them, try going to school 5 days straight, working every night, every weekend, and being the man around the house. i know the feeling. idk. sorry. had to vent.
We were poor and I figured out early on that if I was going to have clothes and a car, I had to earn it. I quit football, but stayed in basketball as long as I could. I have been working since I was 11. Worked half a day me Jr and Sr year of highschool. Bought my first car at 14, a 51 Ford coupe. Married at 19 and worked my way through college.
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Jim
Jim
Had went to work officially full time when i was 14. before that was little jobs and such. But i loved football. i was a d end, middle linebacker, and wierd enough a left guard on the o line. i loved it, it was the one thing that really got me going. but couldnt do it and work. no way. amazingly, i sat down with all my coaches, they have a ton more respect for me. but losing my gf, man it hit me so hard. still does. everyday. we have been broken up for a month or so. i ****ed up, i put way too much on her. pushed way too hard. she dealt with all my bs, she saved me day in day out. i know again, im young, tons of girls, but its hard when i cant go out on dates and party and what not. it stinks. i want her back.